Waking up early was not as hard as usual today.. I only went for a 15 minute-after shower nap and once I woke up and put on my clothes I was so awake and refreshed!! Nice way to start off any day, or at least that is what I think. Then to keep my spirits high I actually caught my bus on time and made the transfer almost smoothly (thanks to the nice bus driver I had). As an added bonus I was not late for either class today, I saw a couple people I love to run into, and I worked out HARD and it felt AMAZING!!! hehe .... That is basically how simple my day was in a nutshell, just as every day has been. School, study, chat (occasionally), gym (when motivated :P ), and sleep. I was told some time ago, when I moved back in with my brother, that I would get used to being alone and I would start to like it. I must admit that this person was correct. It is a strange feeling, yes, but that does not mean it cannot be enjoyable. I must learn to enjoy what I have when I have it, and right now I have peace and I certainly am beginning to enjoy it! :)
One great thing about being alone so often is being able to sort through all my thoughts... and believe me when I say there are too many of those things just floating around my brain.. sometimes I am surprised I can fit anything new up there! I have discovered what my real feelings are for some people, things I never wanted to confront and now I have. Just knowing what I know and how I really feel about some things is really helping me be able to let go of other feelings that I thought were stronger than they actually were.
I am so glad I am free, I am so happy to have such great, close friends ( the couple I have). I am also so happy I have had some time to get to understand myself better and what I want.. Now, here's to hoping some other people might begin to understand me a bit better. I mean, isn't that how it works? You come to understand yourself and it will help others to see into who you truly are... ?? If not, that is ok... I can hope for such things.. But if it is possible, I hope it happens! :P
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