....

I can't believe I let myself fall apart like I did.
Im pretty sure it was just triggered by drinking...
Maybe that's it, and I just shouldn't drink anymore.
I coulda kept how I was feeling under wraps if i wasn't intoxicated.

Such a silly girl... I knew what was going to happen all along..
It sucks worse to hear it though... uggh
I shoulda just convinced myself that nothing changed,
That I just wanted to stay single..
It might have been lying to myself, but I coulda gotten over it eventually.

It's to late now. I don't know what to think.. I just want to leave here...

It's just hard... pouring out my feelings and getting them smacked back in my face.
Sometimes I wish I could just be a nun, or a-sexual, or something...